Rain go away!

I have an issue with the fact it is raining, in the end of December. Does that seem right to you?

Especially since we had some snow and cold weather which makes the footing terrible, so no riding for me. Without having an indoor arena I usually trail ride during the winter and with the footing so craptastic I am not willing to go out and risk Joy falling with me. She is very surefooted but even a careful horse can go down on ice and I'm wary of that.

I have lots of things I need to do but embarrassingly enough I only find it easy to do something if it directly relates to baby. Trimming bunnies is hard and I can put that off but hand sewing big quilt squares into a baby blanket is easy, I can do that all night. So I have to make myself do things like vacuum when what I want is to stay in my little dreamy world.

I am also really good at eating and sleeping. Sometimes I get all guilty feeling like I am inadequately feeding the baby or something, but then I have to feel okay about because I am actually eating and it's usually decent stuff. Maybe if we had a live in chef it would be perfectly balanced, organic meals instead of a can of soup, but I could be doing worse. I feel huge but according to people who have seen pregnant people before I am not that big.

In other news we go 12 eggs so far today! Well done ladies. Wondering if it has to do with the fact I didn't let them out until noon, hopefully they haven't been trying to save babies by laying them in random places in the barn. But it is good news since I want to make a Pavlova for tomorrow and Joe wanted me to make deviled eggs. So having a surplus of eggs is nice. I need to decide on the rest of the menu for tomorrow, Joe is not being any help and feeding people is hard.

Today is a sad day.

Warning, whining ahead.

 The past couple of day I have been really over emotional, depressed and somewhat neurotic.I talked about it today with Joe when he called at his lunch break and told me he loved me which promptly made me burst into tears. Not really a normal response unless I am really Pms-y, which I am not. I realized I don't feel good (I'm apparently a little slow) and I think that's why I have been depressed the past couple of days, literally you can count the number of things I have done lately on one hand and I don't even want to ride. The weather has been shite, just cold and rainy. I am crying at the drop of a hat, every joint aches, especially my hands, my head hurts and I could literally sleep all day. I keep putting off going tot the doctor because it is expensive and I don't think about it when I am feeling good but then I have a couple bad days where I feel awful and am reminded to do it, then I feel better again and put it off. Joe said he is just going to fill out the insurance paper work and take care of me.

I got into a huge disagreement with my FiL last night, who is convinced because I put down bedding that the chicks were going to eat it and all die, I have raised a lot of chicks, my mom does a couple hundred every year and we always used bedding. But my FiL's dad told him never to use bedding and just use newspaper with feed sprinkled on top because it would encourage the chicks to eat and it you put any type of foreign matter in the chicks would eat it and die. I disagree since if you put food down of course the chicks will pick at it, and they aren't so stupid to eat bedding that is to big to fit in their mouths when they have free choice food. Well last night when FiL came over he put newspaper on top of the bedding and my husband couldn't understand why I was so upset, I set the brooder up the way I wanted it, I had a reason for it and I resent being told I am wrong when my way was perfectly fine. I understand FiL was just trying to help but I didn't want help and I wasn't mean about it I just said I disagreed and then ignored him when he was trying to explain why his way was so much better and my way was going to kill all the chicks. Then Joe and I got into an argument because he thought I was being irrational and mean.

Chicks are doing fine, no losses so far despite bedding for the first part of their lives, bunnies all got nails trimmed yesterday and I'm going to put up an ad (even though I would rather not deal with it right now) because they are ready for new homes. I'm going to miss the sweet little things, although I am keeping the grey and white female...

Today is Joe's birthday so I am going to town to pickup tasty noms, and make a cake :) Probably take a bath and read, I'm so fucking exciting.

Micro Buns are doing great, got 7-9 ml of goat's milk into each one this morning, the little white one is so comical, he saw me and started squeaking to be fed! I have never heard a bunny make that noise before it was so funny. He also gets really into nursing and will bounce up and down until he gets plugged in. Four out of six are good nursers, the other two have to be coerced into it. I have also seen them eating hay so that is a good sign as well. I'll try and get Joe to take some pictures of me feeding doing the evening feed, they are getting faster to feed and it only takes 45 minutes instead of over an hour.

It has been rainy here, or super windy so I haven't ridden in a bit. Planning on heading out this afternoon but I think we are in a sucker hole since it stopped raining but there are grey menacing clouds everywhere. Likely just go bareback so I don't get my tack drenched.

Since Joy got a bellyache off the fresh grass I have been limiting her exposure to it, I would hate to see some founder. So they get half an hour on the good stuff right now and we will build it up later. Sunday was the first time she ever colicked and it was very stressful, She got left on the fresh pasture to long on Saturday when Rosie died.

I applied to a riding camp instructor position, still haven't heard back which is a bummer, I would enjoy that.